Meltdowns can build up over time or happen seemingly out of nowhere going from zero to 100 in a second. This is about the ‘build up over time’ — over months, type of meltdown, and I struggled to put this into words. Since originally posting (months after it happened), I have continued to process the experience.…… Continue reading Restructuring
The girl stood on the edge of the playing field, alone. Always on the edge. Always alone. Always watching, even when it looked as if she wasn’t. Someone might come up behind her, might speak to her, expecting a reply, and she would feel compelled to utter some kind of sound, to express herself, to…… Continue reading The Playing Field
‘Misconstrued’ My words are glass and mirrors in your presence. Might they fall in love — with not speaking? Hiding words away in desks under chairs behind doors in classrooms until they are broken? Raw words Leak Spill Drip, bloody through cupped hands. And boundaries? Mine are air and mist Unconsidered You assume And…… Continue reading mute — from Dutch smelten to melt, make fluid
Originally posted on Everyday Asperger's:
? 1. When being interviewed for a potential job, adults on the autistic spectrum may appear as one of two extremes: 1) overly confident with an almost false persona or 2) extremely nervous and apologetic. 2. Rarely, during an interview, is an autistic jobseeker feeling at ease and content,…
Wanting To be like you Another lead balloon Hangs in the air between us Waiting You carry on regardless We chat Laugh Wondering You make it look so easy Seeing Hearing Feeling Touching Thinking While Transparent Hearing colour Touching sound Feeling words Seeing thought Until you stop Waiting …… Continue reading unrequited love
Autistic senses are tuned to pick up things, notice things, that others do not, as Rhi@OutFoxgloved wonderfully describes in this post ‘The day my autism saved my daughters life.’ Delicate antennae that are tuned into everything can result in overload and not picking up on things that might seem obvious to neurotypical people — like realising…… Continue reading diversity and a piece of white plastic
I have spent most of my working life nodding and pretending to understand when I don’t — this has been my default mode which is ‘pass at all costs’, and then (double default) hiding the resulting anxiety and depression and feeling of failure.