diversity and a piece of white plastic

Autistic senses are tuned to pick up things, notice things, that others do not, as Rhi@OutFoxgloved wonderfully describes in this post ‘The day my autism saved my daughters life.’  Delicate antennae that are tuned into everything can result in overload and not picking up on things that might seem obvious to neurotypical people — like realising much later what someone meant when they were speaking, as words and actions now sifted and processed, become clear.

This type of immersive thinking, working overtime to process experiences, when given time and space, can make unique connections. Sonia Boué‘s term ‘brain dancing’ describes this beautifully.

the painting

In one of the galleries is a rectangular sheet of thin hard white plastic that has been vacuum formed to create shapes in relief on its surface. This has been mounted on a wooden board, and lay seemingly discarded on a low table. I discovered that this is a representation in relief of an oil painting on display an interpretation of the painting for Blind/partially sighted people. I imagined touching it, my finger tips running over the surface, feeling the hard plastic with its complex indentations, and not being able to make sense of it. Was I wrong? Was this based on an assumption that a heightened sense of touch comes with being Blind or partially sighted?  I did not understand how this object could ‘speak’ or describe, or say very much about the painting to anyone and was troubled by its possible not-fit-for-purpose-ness.

I forgot about this until listening to artist Lynne Cox talking about her work on the Shape Arts’ website. What she said about being a Blind/partially sighted artist challenged my understanding, and I realised how much we still have to learn and discover about difference.

This made me curious about the object again. Looking for some reference to it online I found the makers website and 5 minutes into a 10 minute video was a clue — vocal input from others is needed to make sense of this type of tactile image. Though I personally recoil at the ‘tactile’ quality of hard plastic used for the purpose of conveying a painting through touch. I also wondered if the ‘sense’ and spirit of a painting would be far better translated via the voice, and if a plastic copy might even be detrimental to this translation.

My thoughts about the object were further informed when I read the excellent and informative ‘Shifting Perspectives’ by the RNIB, written by Zoë Partington-Sollinger and Amy Morgan. (for more info go to RNIBVOCALEYES)

‘Someone using touch to access an image will rely on their brain piecing together many snippets of information. Making sense of that information and organising it into a complete image can be quite a task.’

That these objects need to be used in conjunction with, for example, audio guides or guided tours makes some sense, and that line drawings work better than oil pantings. I still feel troubled though. The object ‘frames’ and presents a particular way of seeing FOR Blind/partially sighted people that seems incredibly reductive. Are we, in the process, missing out on more enriching processes that benefit all?

outside the gallery

In the business of being a professional artist and being able to carry out an idea that involves others, and/or get recognition you need to get funding or commissions or residencies or you’re not on anyone’s radar and not taken seriously. This is my understanding of The Way The Art World Works.

For many artists, but particularly for neurodivergent artists this means contorting ourselves into a structure, a system that does not fit. The originality and energy is in the connections we make between things, and these important nuances can be lost in the linear structure of an arts funding application. We can lose our way, and our wellbeing. Sonia Boué has written extensively and articulately about this.

I have never had any success applying for commissions, residencies and funding over the years. The applications become all encompassing and take over my life. A few years ago, I decided to submit my own idea for funding. It was daunting, but I have years of experience in (meaningful) public engagement work, managed (incredibly) to attract two respected partners, and develop the project to a place I thought was ready to make an application. The infamous #grantium portal with its unfathomable loops and non-sensical descriptions, was the Alice In Wonderland opener to a nightmare. The timing of my application meant that I was caught between the old and new system, but the new system used the same confusing questions as the old one. Answering the questions was like being in a labyrinth, or a hall of mirrors, with no hope of ever finding my way out.  At each turn, there were hundreds of possible exits, with each one leading to hundreds more… and numerous melt-downs. The process made me ill, and it was unsuccessful: the assessing panel said I had not explained an aspect of public engagement clearly enough.

When I was doing the application, I didn’t think the support offered and outlined in the guidelines applied to me, and couldn’t explain what I needed help on anyway. How can you explain what you don’t understand when you don’t understand it?

Sonia Boué’s blog brilliantly articulates and demonstrates the difficulties we can face when attempting to put into words and separate our multilayered interconnected ideas into rigid NT boxes for funding applications. It was only after experiencing this impossible process, and encouraged by Sonia, that I felt I could ask for support.

It has long been assumed our needs are covered under the ‘Disability’ heading. The artist Jon Adams (together with other autistic artists) is calling for ‘recognition and equality of support and funding for neurodivergent people as a distinct diversity category’ and tells us that ‘diversity is not diverse enough’.

Most arts ‘opportunities’ are not opportunities for autistic artists. Many (even those aimed at disabled people), exclude us as they are set up on a neurotypical basis.  As an example, every year at one arts organisation, 16 artists are shortlisted to attend group interviews from which 8 artists are selected to take part in a free-of-charge post-academic programme. The process sounds terrifying to me, I wouldn’t dream of applying. NAS illustrate here what a 1:1 interview can feel like for many of us, let alone group interviews. How is this going to work, when for some of us just dealing with the complexities of communicating over the phone (auditory processing) can be a barrier?

In addition when offering opportunities organisations often have networks of artists they already know in mind, and networks per se exclude us. As Susan Kruse resonantly explains in the catalogue text that accompanies her work ‘United We Stand’  (Power: The Politics of Disability, Shape Open 2017):

‘Success is dependent on relationships and networks. For autistic people, connecting with other humans is profoundly difficult; feelings of isolation, loneliness and frustration are common. …if autistic people can stand together, …they will find their strength and power. Autistic friends are deeply precious.’

After being selected for a ‘respected’ Open after leaving college (where I was a mature student), I was approached by galleries and writers but had no idea how to respond, or sustain the relationships — I still don’t.  I have been invited to talk about my work and to be on panels with other professionals at conferences, but I am unable to do this in accepted ways and had to turn down the opportunities. Alternative ways of contributing are never offered, when in reality there is #morethan1way2speak.

Many organisations see diversity as being out there and other, and oh we need to work out how to include ‘it’. So it has kept excluding us, overlooking all of us, and producing pieces of white plastic, instead of really listening and engaging with us — and missing crucial opportunities to enrich us all. We are here. Just ask.

IMAGE  A picture made from a flat piece of white plastic with raised shapes on it in relief. The trunk of a tree is at the right edge of the image. In the lower part of the image is a fence, above this some flowing water like a river, then another fence, and at the top of the image is what looks like a wooded area.

‘Navigating a different world’ — asks if the arts sector is doing enough to support neurodivergent artists. This ‘Arts Professional’ article by Susan Jones references comments in the above post.


9 thoughts on “diversity and a piece of white plastic

  1. Reblogged this on The other side and commented:
    Brilliance. Another reblog – two in one day. I don’t reblog, have never reblogged but this this GOLD. Autist at Work has written brilliantly about the in-between spaces we find ourselves as artist professionals missing opportunity because we are in no category that is recognised or catered for. A must read for artists and arts professionals and anyone who cares about social justice in the arts.

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    1. I am knocked out by your comments. Thank you so much for re-blogging and as always, your articulate, thoughtful, intelligent comments, and your writing. Would not be here without you, and all the other brilliant autistic advocates online.

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  2. Your writing is superb and really paints vivid pictures of the experiences you are relating. Your paragraph underneath the heading “Outside the gallery” following ” We’re not good at explaining our ideas….connections, … nuances etc as being how we create and make sense of life in a way that is a poor fit with NT formats and thought patters describes my reality perfectly.

    In reality there are no genuine opportunities for autistics in the arts unless their work corresponds to what is expected by NTs and then these autistic artists are seen as ” exhibits” demonstrating acute ability to memorise external phenomena and represent/recreate this is detail.
    In a way it is a bit like the “Rainman” profile that has become a stereotype of a particular category of autistic( E.G. IT Whizzes ) to the exclusion of all others. As such only certain ‘ categories” of autistics are permitted and that is usually as an exhibit … rather than their work being the focus of exhibition.

    Not sure if I’m explaining this adequately….
    Agree it is impossible to explain what I don’t understand because I don’t have the appropriate language… this is always my problem when I have IT type issues.

    That was an aside but one that does relate to your sharing your difficulties .
    Look forward to your next post/blog.

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